I hated the description of my blog again so I got rid of it. I'm going to make a new description.
Don't care what pronouns you call me, but will defend others' rights to choose pronouns.
I'm an artsy, witchy person, I love cats, I watch sci-fi like Babylon 5 and Star Trek, have some health issues, and blah blah, that's good for now...
It’s implied in the books that he’s not well groomed, not that he just has a simple case of greasy hair. I mean, I have greasy hair and can’t get away with not washing it for a day. Which is why I do wash it every day, or if I decide to not wash it, I know I’m not going to be seen in public. So the fact that his greasy hair is one of his trademarks tells me he doesn’t care.
I know I say this over and over again, but it baffles me that people don’t know or get this. He was neglected as a kid and he was poor and abused and overall, that has a huge impact on a person’s self esteem and sense of self worth. People who don’t think much of themselves tend to also not think much of their appearance. They don’t see the reason to put the effort in. It’s not worth it because they are not worth it. Of course, they would never say so outright because it’s not a conscious decision. It just is.
And as much as Snape gives off that narcissistic attitude, that is merely a front. He uses that superiority and his natural intelligence to intimidate but unfortunately, as we see in the scenes with Dumbledore where he is most himself (because Dumbledore is legit the only person who knows Snape’s deal until Harry does at the end), we see he’s very insecure.
Snape really does hate himself too. That’s not even exaggerating. Like he knows he’s a shitty person. His worst memory is of him calling Lily a Mudblood because he knows what a shit thing that was to do. He isn’t stupid. And then to top it all off he gets her killed. When Lily dies he actually says “I wish I was dead” and tbh, he cared more about her than he did himself. The only reason Dumbledore uses Lily to get Snape to work for him is because he knows that Snape won’t do it because it’s the right thing and you know why? Because in Snape’s mind shitty people like him don’t do the right thing. That mindset might not be very logical to some people but it’s something that is true for so many people who end up in situations like his. It’s part of his personal belief system which is not an easy thing to change. And Dumbles also knows that he won’t even do it to save his own skin because he’s so low at that point that he doesn’t give a shit about himself at all. He’s better off dead because that’s what shitty people like him deserve.
And I know I just went on a tangent so I might as well finish and say that Snape haters who go on and on about Snape being a shitty person don’t seem to get that Snape agrees with them one hundred percent. That’s why he is the way he is.
The general characterization of Snape here makes more sense than what most folks usually say and I pretty totally agree with it. That Snape hates himself more than anyone else could has never been in question for me.
But I still can’t figure out how the hell he could have truly poor hygiene and be able to sneak up on people so often. (Not the only reason I thought it was just a “look”, but a big one.)
Does he just not sweat much?
And also, he’s not running around with a scraggly beard, or even mentioned as ever having a five-o-clock shadow that I recall. (Bearded book illustrations don’t count.)
So I honest to goddess just figured it was a grunge-goth look. With the intent of this look being intimidating to kids.
I don’t know, maybe it makes me an asshole to bring that much physical world logic into my interpretation of this series, but… Harry Potter honestly is pretty rooted in reality as this type of literature goes.
And so, that has always bothered me.
I don’t know if this is just my non-neurotypicality showing or what.
Someone walks over to our step to say hello. She bends at the waist, looming over Brooke.
Brooke doesn’t look up. She doesn’t stop stripping her stick.
Dig. Pull. Dig. Pull.
Our visitor reaches out a hand and cups it below Brooke’s chin.
I freeze. Oh God.
She uses the hand to pull Brooke’s head up by the jaw.
A thin line of panic starts somewhere deep. I know that Brooke is going to scream. 5,4,3,2 …
She does scream, but not in the way that I expect.
“I HATE BEING TOUCHED!!” she shouts.
I am flabbergasted.
Words. Self-awareness. Communication. Self-advocacy.
I know the sentence will need to be reformatted. But I am drenched in pride.
I turn to Brooke. “Great job telling us how you feel, Brooke. Really great job.” I hope that my words send a message to both of them. I stand with my girl.
Our visitor is undaunted.
“I just want to see that beautiful face,” she says. “Lift up for me.”
I am stymied by etiquette. By deference to our host. By generational difference. By convention.
Brooke is not.
She lifts her head as instructed. And growls.
This has probably been posted before, but this knocks me for a loop - a blogger and her autistic daughter had the opportunity to meet Suzanne Wright of Autism Speaks, and this is how one of the noisiest voice in the autism community treated her daughter.
What knocks me for a loop isn’t so much Wright’s awful behavior. It’s the unbelievable strength and self-advocacy that the blogger Jess’s daughter, Brooke, shows when someone violates her personal space. It’s her mother backing her up for making sure someone knows that they are not permitted to touch her unless she says it’s okay. Honestly, it’s heartening. I hope Wright felt real fucking uncomfortable. She should.
I really look forward to seeing what a child this strong will be when she grows up.(via iamthethunder)
Have you ever tried to call for a refill by dialing the prescription number on the bottle instead of the pharmacy’s phone number?
Well, it doesn’t work.